Summer fun, real estate woes, and lots of food

Aka all the reasons why weight loss has not been on my mind...

With my brother on our way to Mt. Baker

We’re having the most glorious summer! Which, after the non-event that was spring, is very welcome. Two days ago my brother, nephews and I drove 1.5 hrs east to Mt. Baker, where we had to climb up a huge snow drift to get a glimpse of our house volcano. I actually couldn’t make it all the way to the top, it was too icy and steep for my damaged ankle. I probably shouldn’t even have gone as high as I did but I wanted to at least catch a peekaboo view of Mt. Baker, and my brother and nephew kept me steady when the snow got too slippery (my worst nightmare is to twist my bad ankle). I no doubt looked pretty ridiculous as other people whizzed past me but I honestly didn’t care, I was just happy to take my time and be rewarded with some stunning views.

The purchase of our dream house next to the runway has stalled due to a lack of buyers, the market has definitely changed since the feds hiked up the interest rates. All of this has been making me very anxious but it’s weird, since yesterday I am feeling much calmer and there is a deep belief that things will work out. Not sure where that comes from but I just know that we’re meant to live in that house.

The peekabo view of Mt. Baker! This snow was pretty treacherous.

My eating has not been great, despite my best intentions to stay present with it and to pay attention to my hunger cues etc. Between having visitors in our home, Squarespace launching a new editor (meaning I had to work during my vacation) and the anxiety over selling our condo I’ve been comfort eating a lot. The only good thing is that I am not beating myself up over it, even though I am gaining weight. I do have small victories here and there, when I don’t finish my plate because I am satisfied, or go all day without craving and eating chocolate.

I keep thinking about ‘energy management’ and how certain situations and people are like magnets that pull all my energy towards them until there is nothing left. This usually happens when life gets busy, when we socialize a lot, or when we make big changes. Being energetically depleted doesn’t mean I am unhappy or even unproductive, it just means that I stop being present to myself and my own needs.

If only I could lose weight on self-awareness alone!

My brother made pizza! It was delicious.

Be that as it may, I am very much enjoying having my brother and nephews here. There is no stressful agenda, we have a list of fun things they want to do and otherwise we just enjoy hanging out together. They are easy, interesting and interested company.

My family is here for another week and then we hopefully find a buyer (keep fingers crossed!) and can move in August as planned. I am actually looking forward to getting back on track with my program once all the dust has settled.

Have a great week!

Kerstin xo